WORST MISTAKE EVER

So Lee and I are going to Mexico this summer on vacation.  He's spent tons of hours looking into resorts and such.  Well he finally booked one yesterday at 4:15pm for June4th-11th.  This morning I told my mom about the trip, this afternoon she informed me my brothers graduation is June 11th !!  Possibly the 4th, we are hearing conflicting things. 

However, everything was booked - he put a $300 deposit down everything.  Now we need to get everything changed in order for me to attend my brothers graduation.  I called to check on what  needed to be done this afternoon at 3:30pm less than 24 hours later and there was nothing they could do !!!!!!!  In order to switch our flights or reschedule our week we have to pay a $300 fee to change the flights or loose our $300 fee and start over with the planning.  In which case the price will probably increase.

In other words im SOL.  I told Lee I would pay the $300 out of my own pocket because it is my own fault.  Im so conflicted my heart is broken in two.  I know its not the end of the world but im disappointed in myself.  Lee is pissed.  Im stressing.  I just dont know what to do....and the bad thing is it honestly to God slipped my mind that my brother had a gradution or was going to graduate.   And to be honest he has missed some much school because of snow that  they could possibly push his graduation back. 

So if we rebook or cancel the trips I have to come up with $300 and then some for the trip.  I know in the long run this will be nothing and i'll laugh but now in the moment its AWFUL.  I feel obligated to go to my brothers graduation and I know if I dont that I will be letting my family down and they will always resent me for it.  I just wish I had answers.....

Long time coming

Whenever I started this blog, I knew it would be a challenge for me.  And I have failed.  As all of you know I have not posted anything since September !! 

However, the year ended on a great note.  I completed my first semester of law school & passed everything.  It honestly was the most challenging semester of classes I have ever experienced.  Everything about law school is different than undergrad and grad school.  The teaching, the learning style and the exams.  But I did it...and Im one more semester closer to be done with school FOREVER !!!

Upon completing exams I went home for a few days. While there we got lots of snow.   I got to spend a few days with my family.

I then left and went to Raleigh to spend some time with Lee.  We traveled to New Bern, NC to celebrate Christmas with his moms family.  We had a wonderful time with family.  And I am excited to annouce I got my first real DIAMOND from a boy.  Lee had this idea for a necklace in his head but could not find a necklace that he liked that had a good size diamond in it.  He went to a family owned jewerly store in Garner and had it specially made.  I absolutely love it !!!

After a few days with Lee I returned back to my parents where I spent Christmas.  I had a wonderful time with my family and friends. 

Lee's birthday was the 28th of December.  So I went back to Raleigh to celebrate his birthday.  We went out to dinner that evening and watched NCSU win their bowl game.  It was a perfect birthday gift !!

For New Years, Lee and I went to dinner with his parents.  It was a very  nice treat and we enjoyed ringing in the New Year with them.  Lee had surprised me that day with champange, purchasing my favorite of course ;)  I hated that we were unable to go visit some of my friends that were in town for the New Years.  I truly miss getting to talk and see them whenever I want.  However, I would not change the night for anything. 

I threw Lee a surprise birthday party on the weekend after New Years.  We had a really good turn out.  We went to a nice restaurant downtown and got together with old friends.  It truly was a great night.  It started off with valet parking and even ended with dessert. 

They all say good things must end. I had a wonderful month traveling from TN to the coast of NC. However, it was time for me to return to Knoxville. I dreaded leaving, as I always do. But I just have to remind myself that every day I spend here is one less day I have to spend here. Classes were scheduled to start back on the 10th of January. However, we got about 4-6 inches of snow. It was wonderful !! Even though I was prepared for classes for the week, I did not want to go back at that point.

Now I am in week 4 of 14 !!  Everyday is a countdown for me....In March I have an interview for an internship in Raleigh.  I really am banking of getting it.  I cant tell you how badly I want to get back to Raleigh for multiple reasons. 

On a more personal level.....this weekend I spent with Lee in Charlotte.  We had such a wonderful time together.  I cherish every time I get to see him for they arent as often as I would like.  It has been a personal challenge for me dealing with the distance.  But I truly believe this distance is making our relationship stronger. 

This weekend I might make a short trip to my parents house to visit.  I know I am doing alot of traveling but I enjoy the company.  And I will be making a lot of trips to Raleigh within the next two months; so my time to visit home will be limited. 

So much has happened since I last wrote 4 months ago - its just so hard to go back and pull out the important parts.  However, I will try and write more often so I do not have that problem.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and this new year is treating you well !!!

Miss you all !!! 

xoxo

Im so ready for this weekend !!!!

This week has been a bit strange.  On Monday i was super motivated and caught myself up with work through the week.  Today, I didnt have my first class.  Therefore, I've got to sleep in 2 days this week.  When I say sleep in, I mean 9AM.  Haha.  The rest of the week will be very busy though.  I've got to try and get ahead with work since this weekend I will not have time to do anything.  And I need to try and clean up my apartment a little.  I've got 3 weeks till mid-terms....and that means like 2 weeks till RALEIGH.  I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm doing alright....but I have to get to class now. 

Anything EVERYTHING....little or big becomes an adventure when the right person SHARES IT.

Hello guys !!!  It has been way too long since I have wrote anything.  I am so sorry, but life was been buzzing by at record speed.  Literally by the time I complete a to-do list, I have another one waiting.  Haha.  But Im sure thats everyone's life right now.

So let me update you a little.  Lee did make it to town for labor day.  We had such a great time together.  I showed him market square (downtown), my school & the world fair park.  We went and saw "Going the distance", which is  a great movie by the way !!  And rented a few movies.  I really enjoyed just having company.  It was nice to not be alone all the time.  Of course all good things must come to an end and on Monday when I took him to the airport I cried.  I tried to contain it, so he wouldnt see.  But I dont know of how good a job I did.  He has been gone now almost two weeks & honestly it just seems like yesterday.  Which is a great thing !!!

Since then, I've just been doing work, going to school and other small things.  But nothing too exciting.  I've been trying to keep myself focused because the next few weekends are going to be filled with fun. 

And I get to see Lee again next weekend, so of course I need to use this weekend to get ahead.  I would hate to have to be doing work while spending time with him, NOT FUN. 

I'll try and post some more pictures later, my connection is being slow and will not allow me to post. 

I miss everyone & by the way GO PACK (3-0), of course that couldnt happen during my 4 years there...haha.

Love ya !!!

This weekend...

I have been waiting way too long for this weekend !!!!  LEE IS COMING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I pick him up from the airport tonight & I totally can not wait...time is going so slow.  Haha :)

Just as an update, my uncle has passed away.  Everyone seems to be handling it very well.  But please continue to keep my family in your thoughts. 

Please pray....

Last Thursday my uncle was put in the hospital, they were worried about getting him stable so they could not run any test.  He was unconscious for about 40 minutes, while they worked on him.  Unfortunately, the decision was made yesterday to take him off of life support.  It had been over 72 hours and there was no sign of any brain activity.  He pasted away this morning.  Please pray for that side of my family.  My dad was very close to my Uncle, it was his brother in law but they worked closely together for the past few years.